I was born to delight and disappoint…

You know that nagging people pleaser part? The one who is so afraid that if she doesn’t say yes, ALL THE TIME, she won’t receive love? 

Hi there Love, 

Every morning, I sing my intentions into my cacao as I prepare this nourishing earthy medicine. I walk the land and commune with the horses as my dog does his morning business.

Cacao has become one of the most grounding, heart-opening, feminine anchors in my life. She meets me with presence, softens my edges, and helps me listen more deeply. 

To me it’s not just a drink, not like how I used to have my morning coffee anyway.

To me it’s a ritual, a returning, my morning practice without fail. And she wraps me like a big hug, subtly opens my heart and starts whispering to me. 

That morning, as I chopped the cacao, my heart stirred with an intention.

To trust my path more fully. Even if it looks strange to others.

To stop explaining, justifying, or performing.

To stop bending in ways that disconnect me from myself.

To show up as the most honest, soul-led version of me. Especially when it’s inconvenient.

To live my life in devotion to truth, pleasure, and purpose.

To walk, speak, and live from a place of deep, unapologetic authenticity. Even if it looks weird.

And that might sometimes mean disappointing others. And to be okay with that one hundred percent.

And she whispered to me, in the way only cacao knows how…

You were born to delight and disappoint.

Delighting in myself.

In my path.

In my power.

In my pleasure.

In my wild, purpose-filled, unapologetic truth.

The kind of delight, the radiant, sovereign kind, that might light up those who are ready for it… and it might trigger or disappoint those who aren’t.

Here’s the uncomfortable truth: if we are to live in full truth, we must be willing to disappoint.

I used to think disappointment was something I had to avoid at all costs. I danced around conflict. I shape-shifted. I said “yes” with a smile, even when my soul screamed “no.” I held my breath and shrank my light because I feared what might happen if I didn’t meet others expectations.

But here’s what I know now: true safety is found in being true to you.

That requires welcoming the discomfort of someone else’s disappointment, while standing firm in your own delight. 

We are not here to be everyone’s favorite flavor.

We are not here to be everyone’s cup of tea.

Maybe… we were never meant to be tea.

Maybe we were always meant to be cacao…

Not for everyone, but deeply nourishing to those who are ready to sit with it.

And isn’t that the magic?

When we stop trying to be what everyone wants and start honoring what we are, something profound opens. We begin to live in alignment. We begin to feel ourselves again.

And we find our people. Not the ones who want to mold us, but the ones who say, “More of that, please.”

So this is what cacao taught me that morning…

I was born to delight and disappoint.

I was born to be loved and misunderstood.

To be celebrated and rejected.

To shine brightly and to walk away.

Because I was born to be real.

And there’s nothing more delightful, or disappointing- than that.

With so much love,

Lily